I've always been weird. Not a little off or strange; weird. I remember one Christmas, I got 2 barbies that were exactly the same, so I cut one of their hair off and said she had cancer and the other with hair was her in remission. Weird. I'm ok, I accept my weirdness. I realize that I have a lot of weird beliefs too, one of which is past lives.
I guess I should preface why I believe this with my religious history. I grew up a Christian. I spent many years attending one type of church or another before my family moved here to DC. I was baptized Episcopalian, but I've attended non-denominational, Baptist and god knows how many other types.
The church we ended up at after we moved here was probably the best and worst thing that ever happened to me. The people that I met and know still today are a blessing in my life, but many of the things that I went through there scarred me mentally and religiously for the rest of my life. My faith in God has never been in question, but those who have been 'chosen' as 'leaders' in the church has. I dont know if what I went through there affect why I dont call myself a Christian anymore but it probably ranks in the top 3 reasons as to why. I've never stopped believing in god. But my belief that Jesus is the son of God and died on the cross for our sins has. (I can hear the stampede starting for my door now.)
There are too many religions and too many people on this planet for only one religion to be right. God just wants us to believe in him, man made up the religions on how we believe.
I've always been one to question things, so the Jewish religion has always fascinated me because of it's many traditions and willingness to always allow for questions. Christianity doesnt do that so much. Ive never been able to under stand how 'our steps are ordered' yet we have free will. How can I be destined to do something yet not have the will to choose or not choose that destiny?
I think we're put here on this earth to learn, because there's something that happens when finally we move on from this life to the next that we must know and learn before we can accomplish what we must in the next. I believe that Death is like that movie 'Defending Your Life'.
If you've never seen it the concept is when you die, you need to defend your life. If your life was a good one, you get to move on to the next life, but if you lead a poor life, you have to go back to earth to keep trying til you succeed.
I don't know if death is exactly like that, but some things that I've experienced have me believing that I may have been here before. When I was 12, I was fascinated by the Titanic. I knew random facts about the ship and it's voyage that most people never knew. What 12 yr old wants to know about some boat that sunk decades before she was born? The same thing happened with Pompeii. Only with that I had the chance to actually visit the city when I went to Italy on a school trip. I've never had a sense of dejavu come over me like it did there. And I won't even go into my fascination with the Civil War...really a lil black girl interested in that of all wars?
Like I said...I'm weird, I'm ok with that.
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